Sheila

By Anne Walsh Donnelly, a poet from the West of Ireland. Illustration by Aurélie Garnier.

Sheila

burns the queen cakes Mam told him to make

so she won’t ask him again.

 

He sneaks into the tractor cab and gives Dad his sweetest smile

so he’ll bring him to check the cattle in the far field.

 

He buys a cowboy suit with his first Holy Communion money

tired of asking Mam to give him one for his birthday.

 

He risks a beating from Dad when he runs through the bog

in the white sandals Mam bought him to wear to Sunday Mass.

 

He cries when his chest grows tennis balls

and makes his Man United jersey lumpy.

 

He has sex with men. And women. Drinks beer in the college bar

unzips his jeans and shoves the empty bottle into his empty groin.

 

He goes home after Dad dies, to help Mam with the farm.

She tells him she thanks God every day for giving her a girl

 

He gets a part-time job teaching physics in his alma mater

falls in love with the school principal and his three-piece suits.

 

He tames his hair with a straightener, paints his nails with blush polish

that smells like turpentine and smears crimson gloop on his lips.

 

He teeters down the aisle in heels, wears a raw sick wedding dress

that makes him look like he’s perched on a cloud.

 

He gives birth to three girls. Husband presents him

with a diamond eternity ring. Sheila still burns queen cakes.

 

Sheila is from The Identity Issue – Issue 23. Order your copy here

The Barber

Sherry Morris is a UK-based writer from America’s heartland. This story was inspired by her love of facial hair. Illustration by Robbie Cathro

The men who come and sit in my chair never ask what I do with their hair.

Why would they?

And why would they care what I do with their hair?

There’s no need to share, reveal the thrill that’s laid bare.

That’s between me and their hair.

 

When the bell over the door rings, signalling another customer, my own bell begins to tingle.

Today, it’s Justin tall, lean, pretty Justin with his well-toned biceps.

He comes with unwashed hair and five-day scruff that’s thick and lush.  

He could wash his own hair. He could shave his own face.

They all could. But they leave it for me. It’s the way I want it.

Perhaps a few have sensed my bond with hair. Appreciated, speculated, even celebrated

The secret that I keep.

 

Justin knows the routine. He sits in my chair, watches me stare at his hair through the mirror.

When our eyes meet, I give him my best naughty smile. We are alone. It is the end of the day.

I can’t resist licking my lips.

‘Shall we begin?’ I ask, though it’s not really a question.

Justin nods. There’s little need for talk.

These men who bring me their hair come dirty, scruffy; they want me to make them clean, tidy.

Scratch that surface, dig deeper. It’s salvation they seek.

Is that the secret they keep? Everybody has one.

 

I don’t cut hair much anymore. Only if there’s need or someone new.

I have enough clients now to concentrate on what I crave the hot towel shave.

I adore all hair, but facial hair is revered, worshipped, adored.

It’s what makes a man a man.

I trim moustaches, shape beards, groom goatees. I’m thrilled they’re all the rage.

I clip and snip. Collect all the bits that fall from their face.

And the ones who desire to be clean, I help them achieve their means.

I take it all off, no questions asked. I’m here to serve and please.

Both them and me.

 

Now it’s Justin with the devilish grin on his face.  

We’re back in the barber’s chair after washing his hair.

I place the cape around the nape of his neck. Let the first hot towel gently steam his face.

While I wait, quick strokes on the leather strop ensure my razor’s sharp.

I exfoliate  massage gel into his skin, lace my fingers under his chin.

Feel his coarse stubble rise in my hands. My heartbeat quickens. Soon it will be mine.

The second hot towel is scented with lavender. And when I’m feeling generous, sandalwood.

I fold and twist the cloth with care around his face, pat his cheeks. Know the bristles are softening, The pores opening, the skin relaxing. Apply thick foam and in a flash the straight-edge is gliding Along the contours of his face.

My own face comes close to his as I work.

It’d be so easy to lean over and plant a kiss, caress a cheek.

But I am a professional.

I stroke up the neck, his Adam’s apple. I want the closest possible shave. And all possible hair.

I wipe and rinse the blade with care. Then bite my lip as my excitement builds.

 

When he goes, when Justin or Joe or Tommy leaves me fresh-faced and smooth, I close up shop.

Gather the stubble, those bristles, that hair.  

It doesn’t matter it’s from different men with different colours and different lengths.

It’s mine now.

At home, on my own, my real work begins. I apply a thin layer of Vaseline to my face.

Then hair. When I see myself in the mirror I exhale. Smile.

Closer to complete, to the secret that I keep.

I experiment with different styles late into the night.

Then I shave myself back to reality.

‘One day,’ I say.

I dare not dream more.

 

Those men who sit in my chair and give me their hair appreciate the special care they receive.

Never knowing my salvation lies partly in their hair.

The Barber is from The Identity Issue – Issue 23. Order your copy here

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The Identity Issue

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Writers are invited to examine how the self is formed or undermined, how society may shape identity and the lengths individuals might go to in order to find their “true” selves.

Race, gender, sexuality, professional and family identity are ripe subjects for this theme. You might approach it with a big, sweeping idea or choose a single, expansive observation.

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